One of my intentions when pledging to document training for my first triathlon was to post every Monday, but as I've learned over the past few weeks life comes at you—sometimes at 85 mph—and you have to weather through and change your course of action in order to achieve your end goal.
Right now so many of us are having to reassess, rebuild and reunite with our core values and our community—and my heart truly goes out to everyone affected by hurricane Matthew. Part of me feels defeated and part of me feels eager to come back stronger than ever.
The sense of defeat is twofold. For one, our Island has been severely damaged. Century-plus old trees lost their fight against the wind and rain and collapsed like fallen soldiers. I drive down streets I have driven through for decades and cannot recognize them. As I write, my home office window is shattered and beyond it my outside deck is in shambles from an errant boat and my dock is crumpled like discarded tinfoil. Unearthed tree stumps and their root system and ground cover lay 90 degrees catawampus. The trees that did survive are edited in execution fashion—randomly and brutally—and have only a few surviving limbs, leaves or fronds.
I also feel defeated because I'm so behind in my training. Between a cleanse, injuries, weeks of traveling, the hurricane evacuation and now the recovery effort I fear that all the momentum I was building has atrophied.
I am, however, trying to dig deep and listen to that part of me that is ready to rally. Last night I found a little serendipitous inspiration from a fortune cookie.
I slept with this fortune beside my bed last night and woke this morning, glanced at it and decided to make a list of "I Cans" with the hope that it would tip my scale toward positively. So here goes:
- I can get on my bike trainer and get my cadence back up.
- I can swim at the Island Rec Center.
- I can find a new favorite running route until my old one clears.
- I can eat clean.
- I can link up with other triathletes and continue to learn tips from them.
- I can research Naples, Fl and get excited about traveling there for the race.
- I can do this.